Growth

Well It has been quite awhile since I have written on this blog. I have grown. In relation to my size and how I behave. No longer do I fail classes for no reason. I have come to realize I am actually becoming an adult. Not the version that goes out to parties because they have the ability, but the type that goes to parties because one cares for the people who are going to be there. Looking cool is no longer the objective, looking nice is.
The days of high school seem like another lifetime. Good memories and bad experiences from a time long past. All that exists now are the people I love and care for. I go to school with a purpose, not just because that is what is expected from me. The need to prove my existence no longer looms over my head.
I have grown. Now all I have to do is make sure I keep doing so.

Well I moved again..... damn I have too much crap...

Well, as my self explanatory title has informed you, I have relocated. Its true what smart people say... that you do not understand how much crap you have until you have to move it to a new location.... all of it. I hurt in places I didnt know could hurt. But moving on....

Well, I would like to reflect on the presidencies of the millennium thus far. What is with the world and (excuse my language) clusterfucking presidents? Bush and September 11th, Obama and this Gulf oil spill. What the hell is happening? The whole world is caving in. PALIN COULD BE A PRESIDENTIAL CANDIDATE! Is that not terrifying? Well, as I have been told by many people, I dont really have anything profound to say. But I will continue speaking anyways. So Obama has had a rough first year in office. He passed health care but failed to make it simple and easy to use. It is a freaking novel on steroids. He has had BP epically fail at taking care of this spill. But he cant really do anything about it. What is he gonna do, declare war on BP? He could kick them out and put a crap load of people out of work or just chastise them everyday. He has stuck to the later.
Congress is still a meeting place for the rich morons of the country. And the great state of California is going to soon be in a depression. Well I hope this is the worse of things. Or we are totally boned.

Finding out a little more about myself each day.

I recently took one of those personality tests at my college's career center. Turns out that I am very extroverted and rely way more on how I feel about things than hard facts. Which I would have noticed if I wasnt a moron.
I have changed alot since I last posted. I have hopefully become more intelligent and wiser. I have kept up a wonderful relationship with my beautiful girlfriend ( I love you baby :] ) and have kept a job for almost a year at this point. I havent really kept up my grades but I was searching for what I really wanted to be doing and when you are forced to take two quarters of classes you dislike you tend to be cranky and not very studious.
I have to move again.... oh joy. But my parents are moving back together for this one. So hopefully the crap happening in my life will end soon. I am striving for A's this quarter. I know I can do it. Well..... I hope I can. This is the first quarter that I have wanted to go to school. And it is growing on me.

What else, what else.... I started this blog to tackle things or events in my life or that are happening in the world and try to pull them apart and analyze them. I then realized that this blog can be whatever I want it to be. So it has become personal and analytical. But I need to start posting more. My girlfriend's blog is way more interesting than mine is. But I intend to keep
incessantly typing away at my laptop so that maybe someday someone will enjoy my writings.

Until later. Stay amazing.
Frozensoda

Betrayal

Betrayal is the hardest thing to understand. Hollywood paints it as a simple act due to jealousy or greed. But it is the betrayal, that doesnt fall under those criteria that is the hardest to understand.

Why would someone betray their best friend? Why would a husband cheat on his wife? Why would a parent abandon their child? What part of human nature causes people to act that way? When did loyalty and love become trivia playthings of the brutish natured people of the world?

I believe its society focus on the individual. It causes people to become delusional and self- centered. All the ideals that once founded this country have fluttered away as we have evolved. In pop culture today it is all about living large. All about having fun. Screw everyone else, you are the most important.

Thats not how I was raised. I was raised to believe that helping others is what everyone should want to be doing. That is an act essential to human co-existence. But the world has seemed to have forgotten this. I can only pray that everything turns out alright.

Another update for all you folks out there.

Well. I havent posted on this blog in awhile so I figured I would make an effort.

Now its almost been 2 and a half months with my beautiful, wonderful girlfriend. I am super happy. Only problem.... she lives far away. Now its not REALLY far, but its not like it used to be. So thats a little difficult but she is worth every minute I have to drive to get there.

I am having difficulty with my parents. They constantly nag me about the fact that I am out alot. Now I understand that I should see them more. But when your girlfriend lives far, and you work at least 3 days a week its difficult to find time for such activities.

Oh and I think FOX political analysts are total morons. Yeah, thats it for now. Another intellectual post ( if I can even call them that) is up next. Tah tah!

So Much To Talk About.

Its been awhile since I last sat down to write in this blog of mine. And as such, I have a crap load to talk about.

Number 1: I have a girlfriend now. She makes me happier than I have been in a very long time. Funny thing...... we met on the bus. Yeah thats right. On the big twinkie that takes students home each day. Sophomore year we met, as I continued to make a complete ass out of myself in order to make others laugh. She laughed, then immediately turned away. I figured either I was just too embarrassing or she was shy. So over time, day after day, we got to know each other to become good acquaintances and on first name bases. After that year. She started driving. And I saw her every once in awhile. Saying hi when I could. Then fast forward to after graduation. We added each other on Facebook, and started talking again. The rest is history. As of right now we have been together about... 3 weeks I think. She is everything I could want in a girlfriend. Before this, I had always thought I would die alone. I went to a mostly Asian school, so I was always going to be different. In high school, different doesnt usually attract girls. But I found someone, someone I love, and that is all that matters.

Number 2: Im finally 18. Not that it really matters to my parents. They have not let up on their iron fisted control of my life. Im working and going to school, yet apparently I dont act maturely enough to be trusted with going out late and such. So I guess until I move out, I dont really get to be 18. Whatever, I can keep it together for now.

Well thats all for now. Im happy, for the first time in a long time. And it feels remarkably good. Until next time kids, stay out trouble.

Down Time

Well, as I sit here at the BSC during what should be my Music Theory class (stupid furlough day). I sit on a couch with a friend, and his friends, without a wallet to speak of. I want to be playing pool, but alas I was a complete moron. So now I am left here with thoughts, pure psychotic ideas. I start thinking about how hard it is to connect with people here. Everyone is so cold, and singularly involved in their own lives. One can only be so friendly in life. But it doesnt seem to matter. So I continue to sit here all alone, waiting patiently for a friendly face though I know one is not coming. I miss being connected to people. I miss having someone to hang out with. Most of all, I miss my friends.